Sunday, February 14, 2016

Jesus journeys with us in the wildernesses: Lent 1


The first reading is Deuteronomy 26:1-11
The second reading is Romans 10:8b-13

The holy gospel according to Luke (4:1-13)

Jesus, full of the Holy Spirit,
       returned from the Jordan
       and was led by the Spirit in the wilderness,
              2where for forty days he was tempted by the devil.
                     He ate nothing at all during those days,
                     and when they were over,
                            he was famished.
       3The devil said to him,
              If you are the Son of God,
                     command this stone to become a loaf of bread.”
       4Jesus answered him,
              “It is written,
                     ‘One does not live by bread alone.’”
       5Then the devil led him up
              and showed him in an instant all the kingdoms of the world.
              6And the devil said to him,
                     “To you I will give their glory and all this authority;
                            for it has been given over to me,
                                   and I give it to anyone I please.
                            7If you, then, will worship me,
                                   it will all be yours.”
       8Jesus answered him,
              “It is written,
                     ‘Worship the Lord your God,
                            the Lord alone shall you serve.’”
       9Then the devil took him to Jerusalem,
              and placed him on the pinnacle of the temple,
                     saying to him,
                            If you are the Son of God,
                                   throw yourself down from here,
                                          10for it is written,
                                                 ‘God will command the angels concerning you,
                                                        to protect you,’
                                                 11and ‘On their hands they will bear you up,
                                                        so that you will not dash your foot against a stone.’”
       12Jesus answered him,
              “It is said,
                     ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.’”
       13When the devil had finished every test,
              he departed from him until an opportune time.

The gospel of the lord.

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Lent is a time for self-examination and confession.  Our midweek services are focused on prayer, creating space to intentionally nurture and reflect on our spiritual life, our relationship with God.  On Sundays, our confessions for this season have changed so that we all confess aloud together, even as we also take time to confess silently.  In that vein, I have a confession. 

I struggle with Paul’s words in our reading today from Romans.

I can’t do this whole faith thing on my own. 

I do not always believe in my heart that God raised Jesus from the dead. 

The one day of the year that I am 100% certain that God raised Jesus from the dead is Easter Sunday morning.  Most of the rest of the time I will cast my lot, as they say, with Jesus, but I am not always so certain.  I doubt and sometimes I just plain struggle with disbelief.

I have always appreciated the imagery of Lent in the wilderness.  It is sparse and wide open.  There are no requirements of faith in the wilderness—no test I have to pass or creed I need to confess.  There is an open sky, dirt and rocks.  It is creation in purified form.  It is there for my questions.  The wilderness holds my doubts for me—in hills, in pockets of snow and trees, in the infinite stars that stretch out in the night sky.  In the wilderness there is space for it all—faith, doubt, questions, even utter disbelief.

And the wilderness is where we all come from.  Our ancestors in the faith and our biological ancestors were wilderness wanderers.  We hear the proclamation today in Deuteronomy and join in with the claim that “A wandering Aramean was my ancestor; he went down into Egypt and lived there as an alien

Migration is the story of our faith from Eve and Adam leaving the garden to Sarah, Hagar, and Abraham wandering to the new place God had in store for them.  Joseph, his father, and his siblings journeyed to Egypt during the famine.  Ruth and Naomi traveled back from Moab.  Mary, Joseph, and eventually Jesus traveled to Bethlehem for a census and then fled to Egypt as refugees.  And throughout Jesus’ public ministry he travels, always crossing over to the other sides, walking to new towns, up mountains, getting in boats, and eventually he journeys up a hill with a cross and down to the depths of suffering and death.

Our faith is the faith of immigrants and we are aliens in this land.  Even as we reside here—whether for a short time or for generations—we belong to the one who calls us into being, who calls our questions and our doubts from us in the wilderness.  We all travel in our faith and somewhere along our own ancestry we have ancestors—or maybe we are the ones—who began journeys away from all they knew to live as aliens; immigrants, as we say today.  Holding onto a promise of new life, hope for the future, they entered into the wilderness journey that we too find ourselves on from time to time, especially in Lent.

But I find that the wilderness, while familiar and open for my questioning, isn’t quite enough for me.  I need that space, openness, and aloneness, to journey and question but then I need to come back.  And even while I’m in the wilderness, I need a community of faith.  I need a community that can keep the faith for me, that can keep the faith when I struggle.  That is why we come together each week—to hold each other’s questions, doubt, and disbelief and to carry the faith along our wilderness journeys when it is too much for another to bear.

In this way when I struggle, you can shoulder the burden and when you struggle, I can shoulder it and together that burden is lighter for us all.  So I can “confess with [my] lips that Jesus is Lord.” And trust in the community of faith to help my heart believe that God raised Jesus from the dead.

Within this community of faith—here as Trinity and First—we join Jesus in the wilderness of this Lenten journey.  We rest in the openness of creation to all our doubts, questions, and disbeliefs. 

As Jesus encounters temptations and challenges in the wilderness, and because together God makes us into the body of Christ, we respond with Jesus.  Even as we rejoice to receive communion and to have enough to eat, we also know that others go without and that as an early passage in Deuteronomy states and Jesus echoes in today’s gospel, “one does not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord.” (Deut 8:3b) 

As we look at creation and the ways we use and abuse it, Jesus also empowers us to “Worship the Lord your God, the Lord alone shall you serve.”  Even temptations to power and prestige cannot claim us because it is God who is the power and source of all life.  And in this community of faith instead of testing God or making deals with God for healing, well-being, safety, or certainty, God creates the space for us to sit together with our questions, learning to rest in God, to trust God’s promise of life, made known to us in Jesus.

And so we can “confess with [our] lips that Jesus is Lord and believe in [our] heart that God raised him from the dead.” God creates the wilderness space for our journeys and God travels those journeys with us, all the way to the cross and back.  May this Lenten wilderness provide you with the space you need to journey, doubt, and rest.

Amen.

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